I had a belly full of you
I had a belly full of living waters
I had a belly full of little hands and tiny toes
I had a belly full
Come dry my tears.
I had a belly full of night lights and kisses
I had a belly full of sunshine in your hair
I had a belly full of teddy bears and special dolls
My arms are aching now
Come dry my tears.
I had a belly full of nicknames and stories
I had a belly full of rocking you in my arms
I had a belly full of arms and legs akimbo
I am a mother now
For you were mine.
I had a belly full of first smiles and crawling
I had a belly full of sand inside our shoes
I had a belly full of sleepless nights and waking at dawn
My heart is breaking now.
Come dry my tears.
I had a belly full of birthdays and cupcakes
I had a belly full of Mother’s Days
I had a belly full of picnics and lullabies
The cradle’s empty now
Come dry my tears.
I had a belly full of you
I had a heart full of hopes and dreams for you
I have a body full of love for you
I am a mother now
For you were mine
I am a mother now
you were mine.
I am a mother
You are mine.
Background Information
During the spring of 2011, poet and artist, Susannah Pabot, contacted me about creating some music for her upcoming art exhibit - I Gave You Words - Field of Cradles. She sent me some of her extraordinarily touching poetry that had been inspired by mothers who had lost their babies to preeclampsia.
After reading Susannah’s poetry, I went for a prayerful walk and the feelings of pregnancy came roaring back to me. Being pregnant is so much more than a physical event and images of all that I had dreamed for our son while he was still in my womb floated through my mind. As I walked, the title and lyrics began to pour out. Over the next few days, the images recurred and the music took form and Full of You was born.
While my son is alive, we almost lost him twice during his first 14 months. Those times were so frightening that it is difficult to imagine the devastation of losing a baby. It is my hope that this music will provide some comfort to those families in their time of grief.
The loss of a baby is unimaginably traumatic, private and personal. Those of us close to the grieving family are often lost for suitable words of support, comfort or consolation. Angel Baby Lullabies provides support and comfort to parents and families in their time of bereavement. The music is simple, soft, gentle, and makes a thoughtful and considerate gift during a very difficult time.
